Archive for January, 2008

Rainbow Conversations

January 31, 2008

The most controversial part came from the questions raised by Prof. Gary Dowsett of Latrobe University in Melbourne. To sum up the presentations and discussions during the Rainbow Conversations, a human rights conference held from January 28-31, 2008 in conjunction with the first Asia-Pacific Outgames, Prof. Dowsett asked why words like activism and oppression were conspicuously absent in the language that we use. We resorted, instead, to words like advocacy, which implies working within the system to push for reforms, and homophobia, a psychosocial attitude, a type of fear.

And if we indeed learned anything from the Rainbow Conversations, a gathering of lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender, intersex, and queer (LGBTIQ) from Australia, New Zealand, Vietnam, Singapore, India and the Philippines to talk about the situation of LGBTIQ individuals and communities in the region and the struggle for equality, it is this: we are not facing a mere phobia, we are facing oppression, a systematic exclusion of LGBTIQs and their persecution. And we can’t afford to be mere advocates working within the system, we have to be activists resisting the status quo and imagining a different world. Read the rest of this entry »

Filipinos abroad

January 28, 2008

You don’t know what it means to be Filipino until you’ve met Filipinos abroad. Our sense of hospitality is amplified abroad: we cook improvised sinigang, with lemons replacing tamarind, to feed fellow Filipinos, even if they are virtually strangers. We once met a Filipina in a northernmost part of Sweden, and she invited some of us to do our laundry in her home. We don’t let go easily of our faith as well. We troop to and fill up Catholic churches abroad not only to fulfill religious obligations but also to satisfy our desire to gossip.

Airports are fascinating laboratories of our diasporic quirks. In a short lay over in Brisbane, and due to the airport’s frustratingly disorganized state, I met a Filipina mother who, with tons of bags and two kids, was also struggling to find the Qantas flight to Melbourne. It turned out that we have to transfer to the domestic airport, which was about a few minutes away by train from the international airport. Taking the train, however, meant that we might miss our flight, so we decided to get a cab instead. I helped her with her luggage while checking in, and she paid for the cab. Nifty. But it turned out that she didn’t have enough Australian dollars, and I hadn’t had my money changed yet, so she gave the driver an additional 500 pesos. He politely refused, and took whatever Ozzie money she had.

The meeting was still pretty charming at that point, and her kids – one was five years old, the other was three – were really cute. Then she became seriously inquisitive, a term that only Filipinos could ever justify. Indians are argumentative, but inquisitiveness is a patented Filipino trait.

“May asawa ka na?” she asked. Brutal, straight to the point. Read the rest of this entry »

Fear of flying

January 28, 2008

I’m in the airport, waiting for my flight, and i wish to tell you a little secret: I am seriously scared shit of flying. My palms get wet, soaking the pages of the book that I pretend to read, every time the plane takes off or lands. I try not to sleep, and when I do fall asleep, I panic every time the flight attendant wakes me up for refreshment. Air pockets bring me to the edge. Flying makes me think about life after death, and whether or not I would need a jacket in transition.

So, maybe to calm myself a little bit, I thought I’d just think about death head on, morbid thoughts be damned. If there’s life after death, I swear to visit all of my good friends and share with them personally my discovery. I won’t be the butterfly hovering about - that’s too gay and I am/was already gay - or that mysterious and surprising scent of flowers while you’re preparing to sleep. I will just lie next to you and whisper your name, your complete name to be precise, so that you’d know that it’s me and not a relative or a regular hada.

I want to be cremated. Don’t hold a wake, but a little solidarity dinner is fine. A film showing is good, too, since I really would like to watch Amelie again. Find that bastard who borrowed my VCD of Amelie and retrieve my copy and I promise I won’t visit you. I’ll just send you an SMS next Christmas just to remind you how much I miss you. All of my stuffs are to go to my family. Stacks of unused condoms in the drawer can no longer be used, not even as decors for the solidarity dinner, since they just remind me of how cold my previous nights were.

Ooppss. Time to board. Whatever happens I promise to finish this entry. See you all!

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Remembering EDSA II

January 20, 2008

Today, we are commemorating the seventh year of EDSA Dos. The GMA administration wants us to forget EDSA Dos, but how can that be possible? I was there. I will always remember EDSA Dos for what it truly is: a moment of indignation and unity, of a sense of honor among ordinary Filipinos.

The GMA administration finds it easy to forget about EDSA because it wasn’t theirs in the first place. How can you foget something whose soul is already in your heart? Read the rest of this entry »

Porn in the mail

January 11, 2008

A year ago, a friend living in the US sent a small box of downloaded gay porn videos. He sent it via post, also known as snail mail, so it arrived two months later. As a security precaution, he labeled it “Family photos.” Read the rest of this entry »

Turning thirty

January 9, 2008

Every year, on January 9, thousands of devotees flock to Quiapo Church for the Feast of the Black Nazarene. The Black Nazarene, a dark, life-size statue of Jesus Christ carrying the cross, was carved by an Aztec and brought to the Philippines by a priest in 1606. Legend has it that the statue, its blackness as unfathomable and sorrowful as faith itself, is miraculous. It survived the fires that ravaged Quiapo Church, World War II, and earthquakes that shook Luzon in 1645 and 1863. During the feast, the statue is put on a carriage and, pulled by its guardians, paraded in the streets surrounding the church.

Holding the rope that pulls the carriage gives you luck, perhaps earning you a chance to win the lotto. Touching the statue itself means you’re saved.

Every year, on January 9, thousands of devotees flock to Quiapo Church in a febrile gathering, a collective dervish that could crush a devotee to death. The feast claims at least one life every year and wounds dozens. Faith and death. Desperation and death. Read the rest of this entry »